..That is most likely why I do not use words to express myself..lack of ability to describe, it's quite a frightening concept; something so alien is usually unwelcome in the world.

[He really wasn't sure if she was being metaphorical or not..how could she be speaking from experience?]

No no, it's fine - it was an intriguing idea

As for death not being beautiful..well, I suppose the difference between optimists and pessismists is whether or not they see eternity as peaceful or lonely