[The worried comment only earns Mary a look. It had taken him months to believe Ryuutaro was worried about him... and it took a few near-death experiences to realize that Tsuna worried about him too...]

I need my cigarettes to light my dynamite. I need my dynamite to protect Ryuutaro and my boss. I fail to protect my boss I'm back on the streets... I fail to protect Ryuutaro...

[He couldn't go into that one. Ryuutaro was the the first person in a long time he had allowed himself to get so close to... he hadn't admittedly stated his love for someone since he lived with his father...]