[The thought of Hayato not being there any longer was more than only horrible. Ryuutaro, too, wouldn't know what to do and that was almost as scary as the thought in itself. It hurt a lot and that was why it took Ryuutaro some time to register Hayato's last and silent words.
... that was right. He had never said it. It seemed almost weird to him that Hayato wouldn't just know because it should be so obvious. Ryuutaro struggled with himself. This moment didn't feel right for it, but at the same time he just wanted to tell Hayato that he loved him and that this was why they belonged right next to each other, again and again, until he finally understood. For a moment he couldn't say anything at all. He just wanted to have Hayato promise again and again that he would stay with him... But that felt weak and pathetic and with all the things Hayato had said he just couldn't.]
[in person]
It hurt a lot and that was why it took Ryuutaro some time to register Hayato's last and silent words.
... that was right. He had never said it. It seemed almost weird to him that Hayato wouldn't just know because it should be so obvious.
Ryuutaro struggled with himself. This moment didn't feel right for it, but at the same time he just wanted to tell Hayato that he loved him and that this was why they belonged right next to each other, again and again, until he finally understood.
For a moment he couldn't say anything at all. He just wanted to have Hayato promise again and again that he would stay with him... But that felt weak and pathetic and with all the things Hayato had said he just couldn't.]
....it's not like you have to chose right now...