[Seeing Hayato laugh like this with these tears made Ryuutaro feel like he was being suffocated. He loved this person. He loved him so much and seeing him like this meant a lot to him. But at the same time he was just scared and he didn't even know of what. Hayato was still Hayato, he'd known him for so long, he knew everything there was to him now. There was no reason to be scared, to feel this weird, no reason at all. It was past, over and done with... As Hayato hugged him he didn't move away, even if for a second he wanted to. But there was no way he could let Hayato see how he actually felt. Ryuutaro was almost fully certain that he wanted to keep all they had and if he let Hayato see... He'd react so badly. And Ryuutaro did want to see him happy. Just that at this moment he wished he could leave the room to get his thoughts under control as well as the dizzy and nauseous way his body felt. At least he wasn't shaking more than a bit though, at least that. Ryuutaro forced a smile, like he did so well, and leaned into Hayato a bit.
The same comforting warmth... He wanted to run and hide and he wasn't sure if it was from Hayato or just from himself. But at the same time he was content staying there. Ryuutaro closed his eyes for a small moment. He couldn't remember the last time he'd felt so lost.]
[in person]
Hayato was still Hayato, he'd known him for so long, he knew everything there was to him now. There was no reason to be scared, to feel this weird, no reason at all. It was past, over and done with...
As Hayato hugged him he didn't move away, even if for a second he wanted to. But there was no way he could let Hayato see how he actually felt.
Ryuutaro was almost fully certain that he wanted to keep all they had and if he let Hayato see... He'd react so badly. And Ryuutaro did want to see him happy. Just that at this moment he wished he could leave the room to get his thoughts under control as well as the dizzy and nauseous way his body felt.
At least he wasn't shaking more than a bit though, at least that.
Ryuutaro forced a smile, like he did so well, and leaned into Hayato a bit.
The same comforting warmth... He wanted to run and hide and he wasn't sure if it was from Hayato or just from himself. But at the same time he was content staying there. Ryuutaro closed his eyes for a small moment. He couldn't remember the last time he'd felt so lost.]