[And this hurt just as much. Ryuutaro knew it was a complete lose-lose situation. Having Hayato lie to him like that... It was a disgusting feeling. But at the same time he did not want to know how much Tsuna's disappearance affected Hayato. The one person not even Ryuutaro Fukami could win to... For a short moment Ryuutaro wished Tsuna had never existed... once again. Like he did so often, before recalling that that would have been horrible for Hayato... But if Tsuna hadn't been there... maybe he could somehow have been. Hayato could have all others, he could even keep that girl as a friend. But not this. Ryuutaro gave Hayato a long wordless look. He hated this so much, but it wasn't like he could say that out loud. This was the one choice he could never let Hayato make. Because not even an ego like his could lead him to believe he would win. ]
If that is what you want then I'll gladly stay with you. What do you want to do?
[The word 'replacement' flickered through his mind and Ryuutaro pushed it aside quickly. There it lingered... and never quite left.]
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Hayato could have all others, he could even keep that girl as a friend. But not this.
Ryuutaro gave Hayato a long wordless look. He hated this so much, but it wasn't like he could say that out loud.
This was the one choice he could never let Hayato make. Because not even an ego like his could lead him to believe he would win. ]
If that is what you want then I'll gladly stay with you. What do you want to do?
[The word 'replacement' flickered through his mind and Ryuutaro pushed it aside quickly. There it lingered... and never quite left.]