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badfic_manor2011-04-06 05:58 pm
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[13th Calculation] Recoil [In Person]
[Gene hasn't been seen since he met Nina in the hall. After being received so coldly, he did the first thing that he shouldn't have done and that was to lock himself away from everyone else. He had a lot to think about and the crushing blow he received on an emotional level killed his ability to remain somewhat sociable.
Sitting in the library, he's reading a book on mental illness. Frustrated after reading it for an hour, he quickly gets up from his seat and throws the book across the room in a brief fit of rage, running his fingers through his short cropped hair.
The impact from the book and its drop knocked over the vase on the opposite side of the room. He didn't want to admit to himself that he's starting to fall apart himself. The loss of his wife back home, the stress of uncertainty if his daughter was okay, the rejection he felt from Nina, the numerous tortures that the Author had put him through not to mention the absence of the friends he made all came crashing down on him.]
Fuck this.
[He turns around in the opposite direction where he threw the book and out of the library.]
Sitting in the library, he's reading a book on mental illness. Frustrated after reading it for an hour, he quickly gets up from his seat and throws the book across the room in a brief fit of rage, running his fingers through his short cropped hair.
The impact from the book and its drop knocked over the vase on the opposite side of the room. He didn't want to admit to himself that he's starting to fall apart himself. The loss of his wife back home, the stress of uncertainty if his daughter was okay, the rejection he felt from Nina, the numerous tortures that the Author had put him through not to mention the absence of the friends he made all came crashing down on him.]
Fuck this.
[He turns around in the opposite direction where he threw the book and out of the library.]
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I would have assumed it was just another trick played by the Author, but a few weeks back, she acted strangely too. Not in the same distant, icy manner, but as if she was scared of something or someone.
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What I got was someone very harsh. It's like she was a completely separate person. I mean, my late ex, she, uh, she wasn't quite that bad but she was definitely pressured. She didn't talk to me either...and when she did, it was like I was disturbing the part of her mind that she wanted to protect. I don't know if Nina's the same way but it's freakishly close.
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I see. There is a chance it's just the pressures of the manor that's affecting her. I don't want to believe that there is something wrong with the girl herself.
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Maybe. I don't want to believe that she's losing herself either.
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Was that the last you saw her? When she was behaving that way I mean?
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But ... It's probably just the stress.
[She's totally saying this because she wants to believe it, not because she actually does.]
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[Gene stops himself from talking further on the matter. He didn't feel that she really needs all the sordid details.]