[An unreadable expression after something like that is a clear indication that someone isn't doing too well.]

I know everything feels a bit surreal at the moment and possibly like the whole world has gone off- there's something missing now and yet hardly anyone seems to notice.

I know how death is- what it can do to people and all the sorts emotions a person goes through- especially if it's someone they knew. Right now, I'd imagine it's probably not the death it's self but the idea that maybe if you'd done something different things wouldn't have turned out this way- that you couldn't protect her. But you have to remember, it wasn't your fault.