badfic_manor | Teru Mikami ~19~ Disability [Voice]

[As the recording turns on there is nothing but silence for a moment. Mikami is sitting at his desk and even though he knows what he wants to say, no words come out for the time being. This is harder, a lot harder, than he actually expected it to be]

Good afternoon.

[It was a start. His voice is calm and collected just as always, but as he talks on a sensitive person might notice worry and grief in it. Emotions Mikami usually would never outright show, but cannot suppress at the moment]

I know this week is a hard one for everybody and a time where we need to support one another more than ever. [The man pauses] But I'd like to inform you that I appear to be... incapable of helping anybody out for the time being.
I do wan't to, but my body won't move every time I try to.

[There is another pause in which nothing but soft static noise is to be heard. Mikami feels unwell leaving it at this. It doesn't feel right at all. He buries his face in his hands so that the next time he speaks his voice is slightly muffled]

I'm sorry.

[And for once this is the truth. He is sorry, more sorry than he should be considering it wasn't his fault to begin with. But he couldn't help it. He feels responsible for everyone here, this small world. He needed to keep at least those few good people who were caught in this madness save. For them, for him, for God and for justice.
Not being able to do so was a sin]

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We all find ourselves a little incapable. Your idea is a good one.

Not helping is not my choice. When I say 'incapable' I mean it in a very physical sense. I found myself unable to move closer to anybody needing help, while walking into every other direction is possible.

[Which is what he tells himself every time he starts to hallucinate.]

We'll manage - the entire idea of having several people volunteering to help, is that if someone can't, for ANY reason, there'll be someone else who can. [He seems to be in the koi pond, out front, and looks like ... well, Hell. Like he he hasn't slept much and has spent the entire week pretty much either running for his life or hiding in a fishpond.]

Don't blame yourself for what the Author's set up; it seems to be - picking on personal fears, whether serious or silly, and it honestly speaks well of you that helping others is important enough for that to be the target.

[The... koi pond. Mikami can't help, but look only the slightest bit startled for a very, very short moment, then he's linefacing again. He'd not mention this, it seemed like quite an uncomfortable situation to in, after all]

Thank you.
I really do hope that the Author is not planning on giving anybody serious injuries this week. It seems to be more about the psychological torture to her.

[And he knows it's working]

Mmm. I hope so as well - I doubt I'm the only one with a more dangerous sort of boogeyman, but - we do have a couple of powerful healers now, at least, and a few volunteer medics. [He shakes his head, smiling slightly.]

I think I'm rather lucky; apparently my real 'worst fear' right now is too sweeping, abstract, and complicated for her to manage it. At least with the fairy-tales I grew up on, there's things one can do to defend themselves.

[...Hence the koi pond; that might be a set of skinless horse-hooves passing by in the background on the "shore", yellow veins occasionally pulsing with black blood.]

[Yes the koi pond... So water is Saguru's fear's weakness apparently. But he's a bit worried right now. Hakuba is one of the few righteous people this place has to offer and even if he has questionable contacts, Mikami is kind of fond of him as an ally and someone sane to talk with.]

How long have you already been stuck in there?

About two days now. I tried to make for the lake first to try for the island, but there's some sort of force that won't allow you past ankle-deep in the water. [Why yes, that was a moment of being VERY acutely aware that he was the butt of the universe's joke right now. Hiding in a fishpond. From something he'd been afraid of when he was EIGHT.]

It would be counterproductive to the Author's plans of torture if she allowed you to.

[The disgust in Mikami's voice is very, very obvious]

I'd offer to try help you out with anything, but the situation doesn't allow me to.

[Mikami sighs... This was affecting him quite a bit]

As obnoxious as it may be, I at least refuse to give her the satisfaction of being too put out by it too easily. [He is getting kinda hungry and this is annoying, though.]

I do have someone that will probably intervene, but I imagine he's probably busy with his own demons at the moment; it should just be a matter of time - and I doubt this is something that would go on more than a week.

If she planned on making this last longer, she couldn't make sure that most of us stay without heavy injuries or even alive.
Judging by prior happenings it's not her goal to kill us in masses, so yes, I also assume it will be over next monday.

[He really hopes so. Really, really does]

She's a Romantic; she's not in it for a massacre, she's in it for ~Dramatics~ and has never seemed that fond of tragedy. You don't get much in the way of heroics or drama if everyone dies without much of a chance. [Oh hi there fourth wall. The paint on you was looking a little thin today, just thought I'd touch it up.]

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