Mary Winchester | 09 | [Action]

[was_a_hunter]

[Since she'd spoken with Dean, she pretty much locked herself away in the kitchen. She was feeling more and more useless as the days went by... She couldn't save Dean before he'd gotten hurt, she couldn't save Sam, she couldn't do anything about the man that had been verbally harassing her.]

Leave me alone.

[What the hell was she expected to do?! And now? Now she was being followed. By a ghost that refused to leave her alone. She couldn't hear him, he looked like he was trying to talk to her, she couldn't hear it though. All he did was stand beside her and stare at her. And if his expression was anything to go by? He seemed to be disappointed in her.

What else was new though? She'd wanted out and she got it, she didn't want back in. Even after saving Dean and having a taste of the life again, she didn't want it.]

I said leave me alone...

[Picking up a knife, she started chopping vegetables, her hands steadily moving quicker as the man got closer to her. She'd tried banishing him, throwing salt at him...it just didn't seem to work.

When the semi transparent man drew closer to her and reached out to touch her, she jerked to the side, the knife cutting deeply into her hand. Dropping the knife as she gripped the wound, she stumbled back before hitting a counter with her back.

Sliding down the counter, she sat on the floor as she wrapped her hand in her apron.

She couldn't look up at him, even now, his expression seemed to say "You can't even do this right".]

...daddy, please...I'm sorry...just...just leave me alone...

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[was_a_hunter]

[Winding her fingers into her hair, she couldn't stop herself from crying softly. As much as she wanted to see her parents again, she knew better than this man, that all they'd feel would be disappointment. Family first...that's what she was always taught, and she abandoned it for a dream, or thought she abandoned it.]

He wouldn't be...he hates me, he has to. I let him die...let mom die...I doomed my babies and sold one of them to-... Why wouldn't he? I've turned my back on everything and it's only led to hurting my loved ones..

[crowspetfox.livejournal.com]

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And yet, when he vanished, he looked to me as if pleading me to help you. []

[was_a_hunter]

[Not moving as she felt him setting a hand on her shoulder, she didn't even show that she'd felt anything, all of her attention focused on her self loathing.]

...Why? ...Daddy doesn't care...he wouldn't be proud of me or want me living... [He hated anything that was normal, loving the family job. It's one reason why he hated John. He'd wanted her to be with a hunter. Congratulations Daddy, she ended up marrying one, even if he wasn't one at the time.]

[crowspetfox.livejournal.com]

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It... seems that he does, more than you thought - [] Sometimes people don't realize what they have, or had, until they lose it.

[was_a_hunter]

[He wasn't angry with her? Glancing up at the man beside her, her eyes were swimming in tears that were threatening to fall with the slightest push. Was daddy really not angry with her...but she gave up everything he drilled into her. Even lost his grandbabies.]

...I failed him though...

[crowspetfox.livejournal.com]

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Apparently not as badly as you'd thought. [] No-one is perfect, or invincible; we all do the best we can.

[was_a_hunter]

[Leaning into him ever so slightly, she actually accepted some of the comfort he was offering.]

...No. It was bad...really bad. But, so you really think he's not that angry?

[crowspetfox.livejournal.com]

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He all but asked me out loud to help you ... and I think that only because he couldn't speak.

[was_a_hunter]

[She couldn't stand being alone. It was one thing that she really truly feared, more than anything else. The hug in itself was very welcome, the contact warming her and helping her to feel a little bit safer.]

There's only one way you can help me...and even I'm starting to think it's impossible.