[He could feel his heart skip a beat seeing that smile. He was so close... and just the way he was looking up at him. He wanted to do something like stroke his cheek, or maybe brush some hair out of his face... maybe give him a kiss...
But he quickly forced those thoughts away... he didn't know if Ryuutaro would be okay with any of it... and he didn't want to scare him off. If Ryuutaro left... if would break his heart. He hadn't allowed himself to get so attached to people after he ran away. Until he was twelve all they ever did was hurt and betray him... but now he had someone who... he was in love with... and he was just so frightened that it would end like it had with his family. He couldn't take that sort of rejection again... he was just so afraid of getting hurt...
He had to force his own worries and desires back again when Ryuutaro spoke. It was something he understood well enough. He wasn't sure what had been taken from him but... he was kind of afraid to find out. He wasn't even sure what to say to comfort him that time...]
Well, maybe they won't figure out how to use it? I-I mean... they probably wouldn't know what it is...
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But he quickly forced those thoughts away... he didn't know if Ryuutaro would be okay with any of it... and he didn't want to scare him off. If Ryuutaro left... if would break his heart. He hadn't allowed himself to get so attached to people after he ran away. Until he was twelve all they ever did was hurt and betray him... but now he had someone who... he was in love with... and he was just so frightened that it would end like it had with his family. He couldn't take that sort of rejection again... he was just so afraid of getting hurt...
He had to force his own worries and desires back again when Ryuutaro spoke. It was something he understood well enough. He wasn't sure what had been taken from him but... he was kind of afraid to find out. He wasn't even sure what to say to comfort him that time...]
Well, maybe they won't figure out how to use it? I-I mean... they probably wouldn't know what it is...