38th bomb || Hayato Gokudera || [video/inperson] backdated to Monday morning

[andsuddenlydynamite]

[The blackberry abruptly turns on with a clatter as it's dropped to the floor from Gokudera's bedside table. The only thing initially visibly is a hand dangling over the edge of the bed, but it's soon followed by a slender pair of bare pale legs, and then finally the rest of Gokudera. However he's much prettier than usual, and is only wearing an opened collared shirt over a lacy pink bra and panties number.

He (she?) doesn't seem to be fully aware of the change at first... until he reaches up to scratch his chest... and feels something that wasn't there before.

His eyes widen as he looks down at the rather nice cleavage he has spontaneously developed overnight, and he lets out a shrill scream. Them promptly covered his mouth, his face turning beat red. Boys are not supposed to scream like that.

Then the brief flashing of the blackberry catches his eye... and in a fit of both rage and terror he repeatedly slams his foot down on it until it turns off. Good morning to you too Manor!]

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Re: [in person]

[andsuddenlydynamite]

[It felt like he did... as much as he tried to fight it he couldn't help feeling like he was some horrible abomination of a person, like there was something about him that just repulsed people and drove them away. It terrified him, but at the same time he knew it couldn't all be true. Ryuutaro said he loved him, he had the Vongola...

But he was the only Vongola here. And Ryuutaro could hardly touch him without some sort of twitch or shiver.

But he trusted Ryuutaro... so he couldn't be lying. He wouldn't do that. But after the past few weeks, convincing himself was just so hard. It would almost just be a relief to hear that Ryuutaro was repulsed by him, or that he had done something wrong. He knew how to handle that... it was the reaction he was used to getting out of people. Being hated was so much more familiar than being loved. He didn't understand how Ryuutaro could get so upset and drift away after something he said... and yet have it not be his fault.

Why did being loved have to be so hard?

At Ryuutaro's words he just nodded, trying to push back the sea of doubt the best he could. He didn't know what to say, he didn't know how to act, he could barely even try to grasp what he was supposed to think.]

[in person]

[deeplymeaningless]

[Ryuutaro's fingers held on to Hayato's hand tightly and for another moment he said nothing as well. It had all already been said, Hayato promised to not leave him and Ryuutaro had in his way promised the same. He didn't even want these things to be repeated all over until they turned empty. He just wanted them to be true and maybe because he wanted it so badly it was so hard to find the confidence to actually believe.

As he stood there like that Ryuutaro couldn't help but notice the things that had changed about Hayato's body. It was odd, he had never noticed how well he knew everything of the other by now.
Ryuutaro stepped back and very slowly let go of Hayato's hand as well. He offered a smile.]

Well, being stuck on these thoughts forever won't do us any good either, will it? The future will arrive soon enough and we might figure things out before we even notice if we only stop counting minutes until then.

Re: [in person]

[andsuddenlydynamite]

[Hayato was reluctant to let Ryuutaro go, but he didn't want Ryuutaro to feel forced to keep touching him and let his take that step back. Hayato crossed his arms over his chest a bit defensively, and looked off to the side, blushing, now that he could no longer use Ryuutaro's touch as a distraction to his condition.]

R-right. W-we'll be okay... we always are....

[in person]

[deeplymeaningless]

That's true.

[Ryuutaro found a bit more comfort in hearing Hayato say it then he should, but it was right after all. They'd gotten through so much, always getting back together, always getting out together... So if the past could in fact be an indication for the future, they would be fine]