Mary Winchester | 05 | [In Person]

[was_a_hunter]

[Things seemed to be back to normal this week. No weird little animal/monsters, so sinking ship...just the manor. As though one could say the manor itself was normal...perhaps she could make it a little more normal?

She hadn't seen anyone awake yet, so perhaps she could do something for the other inhabitants while she was clinging to a sense of normalcy. Besides, with seeing young ones on her blackberry, she was sure they could do with a real breakfast, especially after being taken from their homes. Most of the adults seemed like they could cook for themselves...not that they weren't welcome, they were just more capable that the smaller inhabitants, particularly as far as making a hot meal went.

Making sure there was no one else in the kitchen, she got the necessary pots and pans, humming softly as she started cooking. An hour later, Mary was visibly happy, a bright smile across her face as she set out general breakfast foods...she may have made a little to much, but it was just too easy to forget she wasn't at home doing this.

Moving to the sink, she started cleaning the dirty pans. She was sure they would eventually clean themselves, but she couldn't just leave dirty dishes.]

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[was_a_hunter]

[Realizing what he was trying to say, she paused what she was doing to look at him, letting him see just how sincere she was.] Of course I want you here.

I just don't want you getting bored is all. A place like this? I'm sure there are more interesting things to do than keep me company.

[100deaths-a-day.livejournal.com]

[He shakes his head] Can't think of anything else I'd rather do. Really. [sincere smile]

[was_a_hunter]

[Smiling gently, she started moving the recently cooked sausage to it's own plate.]

You're really amazing, you know that?

[100deaths-a-day.livejournal.com]

I am awesome. [He grinned playfully. even if under the playful egotism, he was both basking in his mother's pride, and wary that he didn't deserve it.]

I don't really see how wanting to spend time with you spurred that little piece of recognition, though.

[was_a_hunter]

Aside from just being you~? [Yes, she was feeding that well recognized ego.]

I'm just surprised that at your age, you still enjoy spending time with me. I like it..you're different from what I remember, but so much about you is the same.

I just...It may sound horrible, but I don't have that with Sammy.

Don't tell him any of this. [The last thing she wanted was him thinking that she didn't care about him. She loved him, he was just different is all.] But, when I met him, it was almost like meeting a stranger. I know he's mine, but...at the same time, I have nothing to compare him with. Do you understand?

[100deaths-a-day.livejournal.com]

I get it. I mean, he's met you before, but you don't remember it. But that was one time and you were much younger. It's gonna be similar for him. I have memories, Sam... doesn't have any of that. Except what I told him.

But telling and living is two different things.

[was_a_hunter]

[She didn't have anything to say to that. she knew things were well...strained between her and Sam. He met her before, but she couldn't remember any of it. It wasn't her fault, but she still felt bad that she didn't remember meting them...what kind of mother forgot her own children?

Taking a breath, she pushed back the self loathing that almost continuously threatened to overtake her. Offering a small sad smile, she turned back to the stove, making sure nothing burned.]

I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said anything.

[100deaths-a-day.livejournal.com]

No, you should have. I understand. And really, if there's anything bothering you, I want to know.

[was_a_hunter]

[Chuckling softly, she shakes her head.]

It's a sweet offer, Dean. I just don't want you to have to deal with my problems along with anything else you may be going through.

[100deaths-a-day.livejournal.com]

[The smile is small, aimed at the floor, and he speaks softly.] ...but what is family for?

[was_a_hunter]

[That was by far one of the nicest things she'd heard in days. The fact it was true just touched her even more.] You know that's a two way street right? ...I want to know when things are bothering you too, even if you think I wouldn't understand.

[100deaths-a-day.livejournal.com]

[No, no, that's not the way it works. He's there for the whole family, taking all their burdens and all their shit as well as his own until he breaks, and hope to God that happens in private because damn it all, he's gotta be the strong one for all of you

He nods] I know. [doesn't mean he will]