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badfic_manor2012-03-01 06:46 pm
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38th bomb || Hayato Gokudera || [video/inperson] backdated to Monday morning
[The blackberry abruptly turns on with a clatter as it's dropped to the floor from Gokudera's bedside table. The only thing initially visibly is a hand dangling over the edge of the bed, but it's soon followed by a slender pair of bare pale legs, and then finally the rest of Gokudera. However he's much prettier than usual, and is only wearing an opened collared shirt over a lacy pink bra and panties number.
He (she?) doesn't seem to be fully aware of the change at first... until he reaches up to scratch his chest... and feels something that wasn't there before.
His eyes widen as he looks down at the rather nice cleavage he has spontaneously developed overnight, and he lets out a shrill scream. Them promptly covered his mouth, his face turning beat red. Boys are not supposed to scream like that.
Then the brief flashing of the blackberry catches his eye... and in a fit of both rage and terror he repeatedly slams his foot down on it until it turns off. Good morning to you too Manor!]
He (she?) doesn't seem to be fully aware of the change at first... until he reaches up to scratch his chest... and feels something that wasn't there before.
His eyes widen as he looks down at the rather nice cleavage he has spontaneously developed overnight, and he lets out a shrill scream. Them promptly covered his mouth, his face turning beat red. Boys are not supposed to scream like that.
Then the brief flashing of the blackberry catches his eye... and in a fit of both rage and terror he repeatedly slams his foot down on it until it turns off. Good morning to you too Manor!]
[in person]
He did shiver. Touching Hayato because he wanted to had always been a bit difficult, but like this...? Well, it wasn't Hayato he was scared of, not really, and the female body didn't really bother him either. It was just that he didn't know anything anymore.
Ryuutaro chuckled a bit, dryly]
I suppose so.
[It was nice to have his face just hidden, even if maybe his voice was a little muffled now]
...though I've never really thought about it before, admittedly.
Re: [in person]
You don't have to push yourself... i-it's alright. I understand. I can wait.
[It hurt... but if it made Ryuutaro more comfortable then it was okay. It would just take time for things to get better. They were in love. So he just had to keep doing his best to make Ryuutaro happy and be patient. It would be worth it when he could embrace and kiss his boyfriend again, just like they used to.
He just had to wait....
...because Ryuutaro was all he had here.]
[in person]
I want to be close like this.
[And he could, Ryuutaro knew. Even if the thoughts of the past kept haunting him, he'd already passed the most dangerous border for a few steps. There was no turning back and he wasn't going to keep standing there idly either. Ryuutaro wasn't a coward, he was convinced of this. And now he needed to move forward.]
You've worked quite hard to get me to the point of being alright with touching at all, so it'd be a shame to let that go to waste, wouldn't it?
[He tried a more friendly and casual tone again and luckily it worked. Ryuutaro was pleased with himself]
Re: [in person]
I-if there's anything I'm doing wrong... j-just tell me okay? I don't want to make you uncomfortable and scare you away again...
[in person]
You haven't done anything wrong though, not over the entire last weeks, so as it's now I couldn't tell you anything.
[Considering how much had went wrong between them that might sound hard to believe, Ryuutaro figured.]
I'm just getting used to everything...
Re: [in person]
But he was the only Vongola here. And Ryuutaro could hardly touch him without some sort of twitch or shiver.
But he trusted Ryuutaro... so he couldn't be lying. He wouldn't do that. But after the past few weeks, convincing himself was just so hard. It would almost just be a relief to hear that Ryuutaro was repulsed by him, or that he had done something wrong. He knew how to handle that... it was the reaction he was used to getting out of people. Being hated was so much more familiar than being loved. He didn't understand how Ryuutaro could get so upset and drift away after something he said... and yet have it not be his fault.
Why did being loved have to be so hard?
At Ryuutaro's words he just nodded, trying to push back the sea of doubt the best he could. He didn't know what to say, he didn't know how to act, he could barely even try to grasp what he was supposed to think.]
[in person]
As he stood there like that Ryuutaro couldn't help but notice the things that had changed about Hayato's body. It was odd, he had never noticed how well he knew everything of the other by now.
Ryuutaro stepped back and very slowly let go of Hayato's hand as well. He offered a smile.]
Well, being stuck on these thoughts forever won't do us any good either, will it? The future will arrive soon enough and we might figure things out before we even notice if we only stop counting minutes until then.
Re: [in person]
R-right. W-we'll be okay... we always are....
[in person]
[Ryuutaro found a bit more comfort in hearing Hayato say it then he should, but it was right after all. They'd gotten through so much, always getting back together, always getting out together... So if the past could in fact be an indication for the future, they would be fine]