Conan Edogawa - Case 030 - [In Person]

[always1truth.livejournal.com]

[Conan is angrily playing soccer by a wall he can kick the ball into when he so feels the need. He's not a happy camper and this happens to be his way of blowing off steam.

Every time the soccer ball comes back he kicks it right back at the wall- he's so wrapped up in blowing off steam he's not really aware of anything going around him right now]

Comments

[always1truth.livejournal.com]

I'm not upset. I only put Conan's name on his black list- and then there's the fact he knows Kudo Shinichi is here too. I'm a sitting duck.

I'm a little bit more then upset right now.

[stalking_horse]

..................

I was trying not to say that you were panicking.

[always1truth.livejournal.com]

I'm not panicking. Panicking won't help anything. I'm just nervous and I need to think this through some more.

[stalking_horse]

Then you can confidently and truthfully say that you'd be able to react rationally if Gin were in the area, and actually work on countermeasures to keep him from shooting you again?

[always1truth.livejournal.com]

[...]

I-

[hold on a second-he needs to make sure the area's secure]

[stalking_horse]

....

Isn't it a little late for that? [Why yes, he has been fully aware that you haven't thought about that once in this conversation.]

[always1truth.livejournal.com]

Better late then never.

[stalking_horse]

...

If I hadn't actually been minding that before I approached you, and he had been listening, it would've been "too late".

[always1truth.livejournal.com]

[Once again-fear spreads across his face and he looks around-the area is secure. Calm down Kudo.]

I didn't think you'd be stupid enough to start a conversation like this with him in ear-shot.

[stalking_horse]

Which is a good thing, since you didn't think about it yourself, did you?

[Yeah, you answered his question.]

[always1truth.livejournal.com]

.....No.

But I'm not exactly used to looking over my shoulder every fucking five seconds.

[stalking_horse]

It shouldn't be a matter of looking over your shoulder "every fucking five seconds". Just a matter of caution, taking reasonable precautions, and thinking rationally.

Do you know what happens when you get afraid enough to stop thinking in front of a predator?

[always1truth.livejournal.com]

I'm not an amateur-of course I know.

You freeze up you miss your opportunity to escape or catch them.

[stalking_horse]

Even if you don't freeze up, you start missing opportunities, or reacting to things on impulse and emotion without thinking and damaging your own chances - you make yourself easy prey.

[always1truth.livejournal.com]

I didn't freeze up until he asked me about the black hawk. I do know what I'm doing.

[stalking_horse]

You haven't really frozen up. You have been jumping to conclusions even in just this conversation with me, which is never a good sign for a detective, is it?

[always1truth.livejournal.com]

[...]

[stalking_horse]

Before him, did anyone ever really push you past the point of desperation?

[always1truth.livejournal.com]

Truthfully? No.

The black organization is the first case it's taken me over a week on.

[stalking_horse]

I'd suppose they're probably also the first time you've seriously, truly feared for your life, as well?

[always1truth.livejournal.com]

[Shinichi pauses and thinks about that]

Feared for other people's lives-no. But I guess it was the first time I had to fear for my own.

[stalking_horse]

[He's going to sit down; closer to eye level and easier for a few things he's pondering.]

There's a couple things I could say here. Do you want to know what my impression of Gin was from talking to him, or why I only called him the second most terrifying person I'd ever met, in spite of the threat he poses to myself and the people I care about?

[always1truth.livejournal.com]

Because you haven't seen some of the things they've done.

[stalking_horse]

How long have you paid attention to noticeable cases outside of Japan?

[always1truth.livejournal.com]

anytime something comes up in the news-it's much harder now that Occhan won't let me read his paper.