andsuddenlydynamite: made by reccessional (LJ) ([shock] ohgodbianchi)
andsuddenlydynamite ([personal profile] andsuddenlydynamite) wrote in [community profile] badfic_manor2012-03-01 06:46 pm

38th bomb || Hayato Gokudera || [video/inperson] backdated to Monday morning

[The blackberry abruptly turns on with a clatter as it's dropped to the floor from Gokudera's bedside table. The only thing initially visibly is a hand dangling over the edge of the bed, but it's soon followed by a slender pair of bare pale legs, and then finally the rest of Gokudera. However he's much prettier than usual, and is only wearing an opened collared shirt over a lacy pink bra and panties number.

He (she?) doesn't seem to be fully aware of the change at first... until he reaches up to scratch his chest... and feels something that wasn't there before.

His eyes widen as he looks down at the rather nice cleavage he has spontaneously developed overnight, and he lets out a shrill scream. Them promptly covered his mouth, his face turning beat red. Boys are not supposed to scream like that.

Then the brief flashing of the blackberry catches his eye... and in a fit of both rage and terror he repeatedly slams his foot down on it until it turns off. Good morning to you too Manor!
]
deeplymeaningless: ([serious] I believe the world is burning)

[in person]

[personal profile] deeplymeaningless 2012-03-05 09:59 pm (UTC)(link)
[Ryuutaro shrugs lightly, looking Hayato over]

With wide clothes like these? Not on first sight at least. You're looking more delicate than usually though.
deeplymeaningless: ([serious] [smile] True believer)

[in person]

[personal profile] deeplymeaningless 2012-03-06 09:03 pm (UTC)(link)
[Well... that. Ryuutaro looked off to the side for a very short moment before raising his shoulders lightly]

He's gone... It was really just a one week plot.

[Ryuutaro manages to bring another smile to his lips. He hadn't really gotten too attached to the child, but it was theirs]

I hope the universe he came from actually exists and he's back there.
deeplymeaningless: ([serious] I guess we're gonna find out)

[in person]

[personal profile] deeplymeaningless 2012-03-07 09:23 pm (UTC)(link)
I can't help wonder what it's actually like, but I suppose that is useless. It's not like we will find out.

[Except if it was their future like it was actually waiting for them, but that seemed a tad unrealistic to Ryuutaro. He couldn't see how they could get from this to that, it was just such a long way.]
deeplymeaningless: ([serious] So unsure about this)

[in person]

[personal profile] deeplymeaningless 2012-03-08 09:58 pm (UTC)(link)
[Ryuutaro blinked and his smile faded away into a blank expression before he could notice or stop it. For a few seconds he said nothing.
He'd been pushing aside the issue ever since they made up, trying his best to not get into contact with his feelings at all, but not that Hayato asked he didn't really have another choice.]


I...

[He broke off as sure as he started, stopping the rising automatic smile before it could fully spread over his face. He'd be an idiot to just lie and say he was fine now. If he did that he might as well turn around and leave, it would be repeating the same mistake over and over and over.
That didn't make actually speaking his true feelings about such matters any easier though. Now that he had caught himself from the feeling of complete despair his denial abilities were running high again. It was easier for him this way, always had been. It wasn't like he had any other choice, with no person he was even remotely close to in sight.
Ryuutaro trusted Hayato, that was something he could not really question, but he didn't really trust himself with being able to handle opening up fully.
The smile returned, looking a little more helpless and genuine, but it didn't really reach his eyes either.]


Actually... I'm not sure.

[It wasn't so hard now that he'd already started with it, at least that]

I really don't know how I'm doing, let alone if it's 'okay'.

[He clapped his fan, the motion calmed him]

And what about you?
deeplymeaningless: ([smile] [serious] Behind the fence)

[in person]

[personal profile] deeplymeaningless 2012-03-08 10:28 pm (UTC)(link)
[Well, Ryuutaro knew that much and he had more been asking about last week and the prior events... but for a moment he is just stunned once again by Hayato's vulgarity. There were moments in which he knew exactly that they were perfect for each other... and there were moments like that in which he shortly wondered how he ever got to date a boy who was the opposite of all he and others would've thought he wanted.

The random thoughts were pushed aside as Hayato continued to speak. Well, Hayato wasn't the only one scared, that was sure.]


Maybe we're feeling similar things then.

[He smiled a bit more confidently again, though it didn't look exactly happy.]
deeplymeaningless: ([serious] It's going down)

[in person]

[personal profile] deeplymeaningless 2012-03-08 10:54 pm (UTC)(link)
[Ryuutaro noticed and started down at Hayato's hand for a short period of time after the moment had ended. He swallowed before he took a step forward and completed what Hayato had started, taking his hand and leaning his head against the other's shoulder (... chest would've been too awkward like this, tiny adjustments needed to be made).
He did shiver. Touching Hayato because he wanted to had always been a bit difficult, but like this...? Well, it wasn't Hayato he was scared of, not really, and the female body didn't really bother him either. It was just that he didn't know anything anymore.
Ryuutaro chuckled a bit, dryly]


I suppose so.

[It was nice to have his face just hidden, even if maybe his voice was a little muffled now]

...though I've never really thought about it before, admittedly.
deeplymeaningless: ([serious] [smile] Confident aura (lolol)

[in person]

[personal profile] deeplymeaningless 2012-03-09 09:22 pm (UTC)(link)
[Ryuutaro shook his head, not moving an inch otherwise. He had to get over this, get through this. He knew that he wouldn't, if he waited. It would take forever at least and he didn't want it to take forever. It wasn't so much about touching in itself as about the symbolic level of closeness that came with it.]

I want to be close like this.

[And he could, Ryuutaro knew. Even if the thoughts of the past kept haunting him, he'd already passed the most dangerous border for a few steps. There was no turning back and he wasn't going to keep standing there idly either. Ryuutaro wasn't a coward, he was convinced of this. And now he needed to move forward.]

You've worked quite hard to get me to the point of being alright with touching at all, so it'd be a shame to let that go to waste, wouldn't it?

[He tried a more friendly and casual tone again and luckily it worked. Ryuutaro was pleased with himself]
deeplymeaningless: ([serious] The determination. All of it.)

[in person]

[personal profile] deeplymeaningless 2012-03-09 11:21 pm (UTC)(link)
[Ryuutaro nodded slowly.]

You haven't done anything wrong though, not over the entire last weeks, so as it's now I couldn't tell you anything.

[Considering how much had went wrong between them that might sound hard to believe, Ryuutaro figured.]


I'm just getting used to everything...

deeplymeaningless: ([smile] And this is how you use fans)

[in person]

[personal profile] deeplymeaningless 2012-03-10 09:29 pm (UTC)(link)
[Ryuutaro's fingers held on to Hayato's hand tightly and for another moment he said nothing as well. It had all already been said, Hayato promised to not leave him and Ryuutaro had in his way promised the same. He didn't even want these things to be repeated all over until they turned empty. He just wanted them to be true and maybe because he wanted it so badly it was so hard to find the confidence to actually believe.

As he stood there like that Ryuutaro couldn't help but notice the things that had changed about Hayato's body. It was odd, he had never noticed how well he knew everything of the other by now.
Ryuutaro stepped back and very slowly let go of Hayato's hand as well. He offered a smile.]


Well, being stuck on these thoughts forever won't do us any good either, will it? The future will arrive soon enough and we might figure things out before we even notice if we only stop counting minutes until then.
deeplymeaningless: ([smile] Happy to face you (dating-face))

[in person]

[personal profile] deeplymeaningless 2012-03-11 01:26 am (UTC)(link)
That's true.

[Ryuutaro found a bit more comfort in hearing Hayato say it then he should, but it was right after all. They'd gotten through so much, always getting back together, always getting out together... So if the past could in fact be an indication for the future, they would be fine]